Took a bus back to hall this afternoon. I was waiting along thomson road for 165. Within a few minutes, the bus came. I was thinking what a lucky day 'cos usually i have to wait quite sometime for my bus. However, it was rather crowded. I was thinking if i should wait for the next bus.. in the end, i decided to board the crowded bus and was lucky enuf to get a seat. But it was one of those which faces the opposite direction. It's kinda bad 'cos i hate travelling backwards.


After i alighted the bus somewhere near clementi, i was sitting at the bus stop waiting for 151, when one nearly empty single-decker 165 came. Damnit. Thats not all. Before i could say 'Damnit', an almost empty double-decker aircon 165 came. Damnit damnit.


I guess it is just human tendency to jump at the first available opportunity thinking that u have the best deal, and then later on regret when u see better opportunities pass by. What's worse, there will be many times when u r completely unable to change what you chose earlier on. Count yourself very lucky if you are in a situation whereby you can change your earlier decision without causing any negative effects on anyone. And if there's any negative effects caused, all you can do is just like what i'm gonna do now. All i can say is.. I'm sorry.

The tiger told me a racist joke last nite. Here's how it goes:


During the Japanese occupation, 1 Chinese 1 Malay and 1 Indian were running away from the Japanese soldiers. They found 3 potato sacks and decided to hide in one each. The Japanese soldiers found the 3 sacks and decided to poke each of the sacks with a dagger.


When they were about to poke the first bag, the Chinese who was in it said, "Meow! Meow!" The Japanese soldiers thought that there was a cat in it and decided not to kill it.


When they were about to poke the second bag, the Malay went "Woof! Woof!" Thinking that there was a dog in it, the Japanese soldiers left that bag alone.


When they got to the last bag, the Indian said something. And he was killed instantly. Guess what he said?


The Indian said, "Potato! Potato!"

Busy week ahead for me. School is evil.


Anyways, just read my fren's blog. A word of advice from an old chinese saying: 'paper can't cover fire'. Hmmm.. and i totally agree with u that there is no right or wrong in matters of the heart. My stand on this? Refer to one of my first few posts.


Don't we all wish that we live in a society whereby our actions and behaviour are not under the scrutiny of the people around us? However, we ourselves always like to poke our noses into other people's affairs as well. Life is indeed a big contradiction.

After hearing and reading a lot of stuff from people, i've arrived at the conclusion that people always believe that the person they like is perfect.


Strange indeed. Haven't we all heard of famous quotes saying stuff like 'we come to love not by finding the perfect person, but by loving the imperfect person perfectly' or stuff liddat..
And how we always hear stuff n opinions from others about the person we like but we choose to ignore it or dismiss it as plain crap.


I guess its just that when u like someone, u become oblivious to everything else except how perfect that person is in your eyes.
Which brings me to my next point. Why do people still believe in love at first sight then?


I personally don't think that love at first sight is possible. BUT, its possible to develop a relationship from the first sight phenomenon. Cmon lets face it, being attracted to somebody's looks means you have already taken the first step in liking that person. Of course we must also take into consideration the character and behaviour of that person, and also if there is chemistry.


I think love at first sight is too good to be true. True, i've been attracted to people purely based on looks. But i've never been in a relationship just because of looks alone.
Doesn't all these contradict with my earlier statement that people will always appear perfect to the one who likes them?


Well, i guess life's just a big contradiction. Am i rather cynical?

While i was on the bus just now, my gossipy guy fren sms-ed me saying that he saw this gal acquaintance of ours, who is attached, was hanging out with some other guy in town.


I replied, "dun we all like to go out with gals who are attached?"


The next sms i got from him was "i fuck you."


I'm sucha wise guy. Ahahahaha..

I'm thinking real hard..



que sera sera, watever will be will be

Fidelia asked, "You are not someone who is willing to make a commitment and give up your carefree life right?"


Haha i didnt know how to reply.. I'm still thinking man.

Its funny how a visit to a library can make one think so much about life..


I went for my maiden visit to the NUS Central Library after two and a half semester to do some research. It's newly renovated and the whole place is so BIG. I didnt know where to go upon setting foot in the library, i was so lost. The online catalogue gave me a series of code to look for the books i needed. But that was it, a series of code. I wandered around, and decided to go upstairs. I stumbled into the Singapore-Malysia Collections section. Surprisingly, the codes on the shelves matched the codes for the books i'm looking for! Am i lucky or wad?


The code was 599.2. I started looking frantically for the books. But alas, i still couldn't find them. Discouraged, i decided to take a sit on the small bench in between the shelves. Wondering what to do next, i saw a stack of books right beside me. Who's the inconsiderate ass who left the books there? I took a closer look and realised that the titles look familiar. I found TWO of the books i wanted among that stack! Wow, sometimes its better to just sit back and wait for the durians to drop. While i was searching for the books, i browsed through a couple of other books. I realised that newer attractive covers lose out to the old mouldy books in terms of contents especially since I'm researching for a history module. Looks don't mean everything.


As i was leaving the lib, i saw my fren mugging hard at one of the study tables. Its a saturday omg and what is she doing there??? Well, she told me that she's aiming for a cap score of 5 this sem which means an 'A' grade for all the 6 modules she's taking!! Being realistic and down to earth, i politely asked her if that is really possible. She said no, she herself also know that its unrealistic but if ur expectation is high, u'll prob fall short of ur expectation by a bit. In her case, it means she'll get a cap score of 4+, which is short of a perfect 5 but still much better than her previous cap scores of 3+. In other words, it means aim high, fall short but still do better than before.


I say that's bullshit. If you have high expectations in the first place, no matter how close you are to wad u expect in the beginnig, you'll still be disappointed. Thats why, i choose not to have any expectations. No expectations, really. I just put in however much effort i want and feel like. As long as i feel that the results reflect the efforts i put in, i'm happy.


Its quite likely that people will interprete my above statement as i expect to get back what i give. No thats not the case. I just need to feel that my efforts are worth it. You don't have to do things that you don't want to. I just need to feel that you actually feel something as well. Otherwise i'll feel dumb. Seeing how often the word 'feel' is used, i guess its basically about the way you make me feel.


Should we take a break, sit back and see if things will work out somehow (a la waiting for the durian to drop) or to continue walking the path and work our way out of the forest full of durian trees?

...if only all gals can turn out like this just by going to jean yip...





...or if they can turn out like this just by using Neutrogena's deep clean cream cleanser...


Of course, those are just wishful thinking on my part. I'll just settle for someone who tastes like this and lives in Din Tai Fung..

Who killed the cat? Well, curiosity of course! I was rather bored tonight 'cos almost everybody went for the hall's oac nite cycling thingy. And guess what, i was basically blog surfing and i discovered a whole lot of stuff. As i read every word, all i could mutter was "Oh my gawd...."


Now that i've discovered a whole bunch of stuff, i'm beginning to see people in a different light. A few days ago, someone asked if i'm a judgmental person. I seriously thought that i'm not the sort. But now i realise that i actually am, to a certain extent only (i insist). I'm still gonna base my opinions on people by how they treat me and not through what i read or hear about them. But you know how impressions you get can be rather lasting in your mind even if its just stuff that you read or hear.


Wish i wasn't that bored just now. Damn.

You know you're confused when:


1) You're driving and the traffic light turns amber. You step hard on the accelerator and decides to jam brake at the last second.


2) You see an old long lost aquaintance in school. You duno if u shud say hi or just pretend you didnt see him/her. In the end, you try to smile and say hi but he/she has a puzzled look on the face which says do i know you?


3) You have a hard time deciding whether to pass the bball or shoot it. In the end you get caught for a 3 second lane violation.


4) You can't decide between buying the original textbook or the photocopied one. And ends up buying both.


5) You can't decide which drink you wanna buy at the vending machine and lets the next person go first. Then you realise that both of the drinks are sold out when its your turn and that the person actually bought the only one remaining.


6) You can't decide which sauce you'll like at macDonald's and asks what kind of sauces are available. You get stared at by the counter staff for trying to give him a hard time.


7) You think that a celebrity of the same sex is cute. And you start wondering if you're homosexual.


8) You can't decide if you wanna study or just play some computer games. You end up falling asleep on your bed.


9) You can't decide what you want for your birthday. And your birthday is still fucking two months plus away!


10) You hear different variations of people's stories and you duno who to believe. In the end, you give it so much thought until it really irks you and yet you still can't come to a conclusion.

You guys who watch soccer are often quite familiar with this scenario whereby the commentator praises a certain player for playing quite well, and the next moment, the player makes a stupid mistake. Well, thats the commentator's curse for u. Just as i was wondering in my last post when the next storm will come, it has arrived. I should've shut my bloody mouth.


Oh yah, in case anyone out there is still wondering, you are not allowed to park by the side of the road with single yellow zig zag lines. You can get fined, imprisonment, caned or something like that. Singapore really is a fine city!

Went simpang bedok last nite to have supper at this prata place. The 'planta' prata was good.. super oily n all till i still feel the oil inside me now. However, the prata at goldenmile in beach road is still the best that i've ever eaten in my life. Oh i got a question for my dear friends.. am i allowed to park at the side of the road where there's a yellow zigzag line?


Anyways i was happily trying to find my way home from the east side of Singapore, a part of the island that makes me feel like i know JB better than there, when my friend started smsing me. In one of the smses, she asked 'Are you happier this way?' I didnt tell her how i totally felt, but the question really got me thinking.. Am i happy now?


Well, i guess i'm kinda contented with my life now. Yeah i'm being really truthful here. And being easily satisfied as well. I think after going thru all that shit recently has made me appreciate peace and tranquility more than ever. Its like i can finally return to my small little cosy corner and continue watching the world go by. When is the next storm gonna come? I really dun wish to know so soon. Haha!