I'm lost. Somehow all my friends are telling me that they feel i am drifting apart from them. HUH? First, my secondary school buddies said that we're drifting apart. That i understand 'cos we seldom see each other because one of them is in the army and the other is working while i'm in uni. Then, my closest frens from my faculty said that we're drifting apart. That i understand too 'cos we have very few chance to meet up this sem 'cos most of our common lectures except one are webcasted and we can't be bothered to attend. And we have no common tutorials.


Wait a minute, i noticed a pattern. Does the problem of not seeing each other often means drifting apart? No i don't think so. I think the real meaning of drifting apart means when two parties, who used to be close and have the same ideals n thoughts, start to have differences in their way of thinking and their mentality. That i admit i do feel about a particular friend. Sometimes the way that friend think can be really puzzling to me. Its like i wouldnt expect my friend to think that way years ago when we were really very close n bonded. At times, the new way this fren thinks really shocks me until i wonder what is going through the mind or what has changed that mentality.


Nobody will be able to feel whether he/herself has changed as compared to the past. If you were to ask me if i had changed since last time, i will say no other than getting cuter by the day. =P I guess its just part of human's nature to be in constant self-denial. (hey i'm not talking about the getting cuter by the day part) All i can say is, I'm sorry but we do feel that you've changed. We really have no idea what caused the change or how we can help other than trying to be there for you whenever you need us. We've tried to help in other ways, but failed. We're not giving up, we just dunno how.

Why do you get jealous when you see me with someone else? I mean, why should you? Afterall, you were the one who wanted to be just close friends. Basically, you were the one who didnt want me. Or rather, according to you, you couldn't. Since you know you can't and that you only wanna be close friends, so why bother getting jealous and showing it to me? Girls are weird.

People's taste changes according to the environment? Or does people's taste change the environment?

This brings me to my next two questions. Do people's taste change too quickly? Or does the environment change too quickly?

I'm asking this kinda cock questions cause of my philosophy module and my sociology module. I'm beginning to question almost everything in life and wondering whether it is related to the society. For example, is that gal's boobs big or are they just bigger than the rest of the people around her?


I'm beginning to get addicted on Ice Horlicks. I used to love Ice Milo and i thought that nobody will be able to break us up. I'm so wrong. (those are not code names of gals, i assure all you readers) If there's no such thing as 'the one', the person whom u can confirm u will spend forever n ever n ever with for the rest of ur life, whats the point of getting into a relationship with someone and end up hurting each other's feelings? Isn't life better when people just be friends who care n share? That way, there'll be no need to potong jalan and nobody will be bastards or bitches. Nobody will be called loose, a flirt or watever. People will live happily together in peace and harmony. Yeah and all the gals i like won't have any boyfriends! Haha..

And so i went for lecture this morning after my night at mambo n phuture.. It was a sociology lecture about how to make sense of the society we live in.. how the way people behave is influenced by their environment...


*FLASHBACK* i was talking to this girl and she told me that she doesn't dare talk to me 'cos i seem unfriendly. Hmmmmmmm thats wrong. i'm really shy when i'm with strangers or people whom i don't really know well enuf. Yeah, especially more so when they happen to be pretty n attractive. Haha.. dun be jealous of my fren. I think u r attractive.


And so the lecturer goes on about Hunters and Gatherers..


*FLASHBACK* the girl was commenting on my fren. She couldn't understand how his gf can stay with him for 4 years. Yeah thats 'cos he's a big time player (its the same guy i mentioned in one of my blogs earlier on.. the one abt not getting caught when doing wrong things). Okay i also agree that he doesn't deserve a gf like her. But i gotta defend my fren no matter what. So here goes.. I think my fren just doesn't know the limit of close proximity with gals who are not his gf. Its like there's a line drawn when it comes to such things, but for him, the line is pushed further back. He doesn't think its wrong so probably thats what makes him feel like he hasn't done anything wrong. Besides, he claims that his daddy was quite a 'sociable' person back in his prime (sorry uncle, i hope u still buy me tow huay n you tiao when i stay over) and so its in the genes. Thats lame my dear fren. My father wasnt as goodlooking as me back in his prime.


And so i overheard the gals beside me talking about facial mask or sth....


*FLASHBACK* my dear fren is sad. I know he is sad. But i have no idea how to have a heart to heart talk with him even though i really want to. Cos it seems gay to do that. What if he cries on my shoulder? -shudder- (haha i like the way the last two words are used) He says that he has been wearing a mask and people cant seem to look beyond that mask. I feel the same too. There are times when u really get tired n all and feel like taking off that mask. But somehow that mask gives u power (i know it may sound cheesy n lame but im serious). The mask gives u an identity.. a character.. something which enables u to make frens more easily, makes u more accepted by the people around u. Its not like u're not being ur true self.. definitely not being a hypocrite.. its more like we are being shaped by the society.


I am tired too. I wanna take my mask off. Live a simple life. I'm tired.. really tired... sooo tired...
No wonder. Its 230am. =P

Went to IKEA today. Realised that i got so much things to buy. (Dear lord, please bless me with a huge windfall this saturday 'cos sunday is the last day of the IKEA sale.)


Had lunch at IKEA with one of the Miss Spore Universe finalist and the Miss Spore Universe winner.. But the main highlight of lunch was still the swedish meatballs. Haha.. with all due respect to the two gals who were nice enough to drive my two other friends n i down to IKEA. Well i hate having to make conversation with people who i don't really talk to so i was kinda quiet and not because i was overawed by their aura. Anyways dear MSU ate in a quirky manner.. she had to wrap every chicken wing with a piece of servette. On top of that she had a big bowl of green grass. I was half expecting her to moo. (Sorry justin, i know she's ur fren.. i just can't resist it) The other MSU finalist was even funnier. She was talking abt justin's impressive door which *gasp* OPENS! D-U-H.


After that i went queensway to buy shoes. (Shall resist any further MSU jokes)


Oh.. then i had to come back to hall for some Shiseido beauty clinic. Learnt a lot from it man. Now i'm metro-sexual! The nice Shiseido lady who was in all black n black stockings gave us all nice freebie. Some Shiseido hair products n lip gloss or sth. I'm sooooooooooo gonna use them.. Prob the next time i visit Patpong in Thailand.


Next I had block theme nite. Its some kinda dumb hall stuff.. where every block has to put up some performance and cook nice food for the judges (namely the resident fellows and the hall master) I say its actually an evil ploy for them to laugh at us and enjoy the food we cook! Pui. And so, i had to act in the skit. Had to do some toilet scene with Donald. Freaking dumb but i hope everyone had a good laugh at our expense.


And so, i had absolutely no time to study today. I really wish daddy agree to buy me a car in the first place instead of sending me to hall. I seriously think i can get better results if i didnt stay in hall. Oh papa dun preach........

I went to watch 'Secret Window' with 3 other friends last nite. Woke up this morning and read the review of that show in the newspaper. I'm glad that i managed to figure out the eventual plot of the show 20minutes into the movie.. like what the newspaper said most people will be able to. However, my friends are dumb. Haha =P


My friend fly my aeroplane today. She told me last week that she wants to go see the fireworks. And so, i turned down several people who asked me to go watch the fireworks. In the end, she told me she couldnt make it cos she's meeting another fren who is celebrating bday. WELL DONE. Its not like i very gian the bloody fireworks la.. but next time pls give advance notice. I'm so irritated only because this person has fly my aeroplane quite a number of times at the last minute. If you don't wanna go out with me, then don't ask me out la. Knn.. she's really playing to my weakness. The more difficult the challenge, the more gian i become.


Hey but don't try to play punk with me. There's a fine line between being lovingly difficult and being pissing-off difficult.

First lecture i went for this semester and i was in for a shock. My lecturer turned out to be my secondary school english teacher! Then he had to call the gentleman in red tee-shirt to answer a question, and that poor red tee guy was in la-la land 'cos the lecture was 9am in the morning! Bad start to the sem...


Oh mans tomorrow is my hall's DnD bash! I hope everything turns out fine for my contestants. They have been training hard and their efforts will eventually pay off i'm sure. However, no matter what, we can't have everyone going to heaven.. some will go to hell.. (i'm not sure this saying is apt) But nonetheless, whether they make it to the pageant and manhunt finals or not, they are all winners in my heart 'cos they took up the challenge. I hope they learn something useful from this experience. Even if all they benefitted was to make some new friends, i will still be happy that i picked them in the first place. WOW! I'm politically correct tonites!

YAY! Finally orientation has ended. Its been quite a sucky orientation for me. I'm like the troublemaker of the orientation in the eyes of the orientation committee. I'm not okay, i just wanna have good clean fun.


Anyways i was supposed to pick the contestants for my hall's pageant and manhunt contest. It may seem like an easy job that every guy will want, but i assure you that this is the last time i'm ever gonna do something like this (I'll just take part in the contest in the future). I had a guy who wanted to pull out of the contest. When i insisted that he take part, he told me "YOU don't have a girlfriend so you won't understand one. I didn't last SEVEN years with my gf for it to end just because of some STUPID contest." Thats a no-no. You shouldn't say something like that to me. What the fuck is wrong with not having a girlfriend? Does not having a girlfriend mean that i can't put myself in your shoes and try to see what's your problem? If that fella and his gf has been together for 7 years, i don't see how by taking part in my pageant will jeopardise their relationship. Either he is hen-pecked or probably his gf will come down to the bash to support him and end up seeing me and falling for me in the space of 7 minutes.


Next, i had a senior who claimed that the pageant is and has always been rigged. He, who i shall not name, said that i can always eliminate the contestant in the semi-finals if i want to. He, who happened to have been eliminated in the semi-finals last year, added that the pageant is in fact rigged. What da hell is wrong with him? If he goes around telling people this kinda stuff, then who will bother to take part? But i hope that he was doing it in goodwill, maybe he thinks that i need sex badly and that by telling people this kinda stuff, those who wanna win will try to get into my goodbooks by sleeping with me or something. Thanks dude.


Yep anyways my hall's DnD bash is on 12th August (thursday) at Rouge. Tickets are priced at $14 each with 1 free drink. The pageant starts at 930pm sharp. Drinks are 1 for 1 the whole night through. Please come okay!